It has been nearly two years since I updated this journal... Mainly because I have been unable to access the internet. I am of poor folk that could only just recently afford it lol. It's sad, I know.
Gosh, so much has happened in my life that I don't even know where to begin. I suppose the best place to start is where my last entry left off. Let's begin with my once favorite subject, shall we?
She's a FUGLY, LYING, CHEATING, HO BAG STILL lol. Ok, enough name calling...
I wish I could say that in my two-year absence from this journal that I had completely cut her out of my life, but I'm too forgiving a person for my own good at times. I let her suck me back in again just ONE MORE TIME when we attempted a friendship a few months back. I'm sure you can guess how that ended? No? Well, she tried all the same bullshit she had in the past by telling me she loved me and wanted me back, but had conflicted feelings yada yada yada. Honestly, I had been over this bitch a long time. Everything she kept telling me, I had heard too many times to count before. So after pretending to be her friend a while, I went on MySpace to do a little detective work. I found out that, of course, she was still with her fat ass (Oops that's name calling, isn't it?) girlfriend, Pearl. So I did what any sensible person would do in that situation... I cussed her out via several hundred text messages, messaged all their friends on MySpace and explained what Nadya was doing behind Pearl's back, and just washed my hands of her and all her drama for good.
About a month later, Nadya hacks my MySpace and gets her "woman", MONSTRO (I think that sounds so much better than Whore #2, don't you agree?), to write mean things about me on my page. All so very high school, I know lol. Why would I care about MySpace anyway? I also have a Facebook and rarely go on either site. Lame-o. I politely text messaged Pearl a few days later and we talked things out. I told her my side of the story (Nadya denied having any kind of communication with me in years) and I think she believed me. Maybe she's not as dumb as she looks. Then again, she's been with Nadya for four years, so... maybe I'm giving her too much credit. Anyway, I've wasted enough time writing about her. I've changed my phone number since that whole ordeal and moved residences. With any luck, The Jessica & Nadya Chronicles are at an end.
We've been together 11 months now... Our one year anniversary is next month on the 4th. I would be lying if I said our relationship is perfect. We've had many ups and downs, but we're still holding strong. I remember wishing and hoping after my break-up with Jess, to meet a girl that was just as crazy about me as I was for her... and I truly believe I have found that with Cecilia.
Sometimes it's hard to believe that someone so beautiful can love me as much as she does. I've been with beautiful women in my past, but all were just notches on my belt or simply couldn't/wouldn't reciprocate my love. What's funny (and sometimes annoying) is how different we are... we rarely agree on things and that can sometimes result in nasty fights, but once my anger subsides, I look at her and want nothing more than to take her in my arms and never let go. One of the best things about Cecilia: She's a fantastic snuggler lol. I love being in her arms and vice versa. I can't sleep without her. But enough of this lovey-dovey talk. I'm sure there will be many Cecilia related entries in the future... in our future.
My Life Today
My life was at a standstill for a while... no job, no goals, nothing. I finally feel like my life is getting started. I'm going to be 25 next month, I have a great girl, I'm medicated, I have a low level stress job that I'm beginning to love, and my relationship is propelling us to find a place of our own in the next coming months. Once we're situated (hopefully in Claremont or a surrounding area), I'm going to finally return to school. Cecilia's mom will also have hopefully passed down the car to her and we'll finally be mobile. As unbelievable as it is even to me, I'm actually happy. Imagine that.
Current Music: "This Film Is Not Yet Rated" in the background.